loud enough to breathe

by kaci taylor

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first demo album/EP/something feat. songs written 2015-2016.

if you enjoy tracks that don't sound particularly professional at all but serve as the main form of catharsis for their writers, you might sorta like this ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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released November 30, 2016

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kaci taylor San Marcos, Texas

alternative/indie/whatever singer-songwriter with an all-consuming love for music and people. there. that sounds like me, right?

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Track Name: to photograph one's life
the ants on the floor all follow a line
that promised to lead to much better times
their friends that have been tell what they might find

so on then they go with minimal doubt
although they can’t see how things will turn out
for their friends have made it through somehow

and I’m just a human scared of how i got here
and obsessed with the rest of my eighty odd years
the prospect of death never seemed to phase me

so i focus for sure on the present day’s weight
in the back of my mind future local show dates
and the dreams in my head well they seem pretty great
just trying to sound the same way

trying not to stay up late
trying not to be afraid
trying to be okay
‘till i can make it

‘cause the ants on the floor all follow a line
that promised to lead to much better times
their friends that have been tell what they might find

so on then they go with minimal doubt
although they can’t see how things will turn out
for their friends have made it through somehow

but sometimes the ants they can’t quite comprehend
when the line breaks before it’s the promising end
so they spin ‘round in circles in circles they spin
‘till they find it again

and this thing called success well i know it won’t be
the end of all doubts and all problems for me
but that’s not the point you see

live every day like it might be your last

and don’t take for granted the freedoms you’re cast
‘cause someone looks better and runs twist as fast
but this is all you have
to be
Track Name: untitled 10
i tried to write a better song
i really tried

i tried to write a happy song
i tried

i tried to write a song that i believe in
it’s simpler at best

i tried to write the words i tend to feel and
ignore all of the rest

but i looked up and around and down at the ground
and despite the friends i know i’ve found
that i know are surely out there
somewhere
none of them were here
and none could be near

so tell me where you’ve been
so i’ll find you again
and tell me where you’re going
so i know where to begin

you said you’d always miss me
i knew it wasn’t true
‘cause even though we tried i knew
i’d end up missing you
i’d end up missing you
i’d end up missing you

so i’m sitting in this seat alone just wishing i was free to roam
but also i’d just rather stay inside
and maybe i’ll do both if i just try

so tell me where you’ve been
so i’ll find you again
and tell me where you’re going
so i know where to begin

you said you’d always miss me
i knew it wasn’t true
‘cause even though we tried i knew
i’d end up missing you
i’d end up missing you
i’d end up missing you

and i can’t acquiesce
everyone’s requests
as a model so their parents will leave them at peace and rest
but know i’ll do my best

so tell me where you’ve been
so i’ll find you again
and tell me where you’re going
so i know where to begin

you said you’d always miss me
i knew it wasn’t true
‘cause even though we tried i knew
i’d end up missing you
i’d end up missing you
i’d end up missing you
Track Name: loud enough to breathe
headbang invisible walls and i’m not sure
nearly forgot what it’s like but i’ve been here before

the things that i don’t know i’d rather not know now
and maybe if i ignore them they’ll go away somehow

the day goes on sometimes there’s nowhere to be
the things we do to survive seem so mainstream

and maybe someone will want to just hear me
but it’s not loud enough to breathe

my senses aren’t confused just hear me out
the silence in the air can make you drown

and with the right kind of noise your mind can be found
but sometimes what you need just isn’t around

it’s not around no no it’s not around no no no
i’ve tried to find it in these times - not around

i know i don’t wanna die and no i’m not afraid to go
but the big things in life you know they start to feel like a joke

i learned what i’m supposed to know
but time is quickly slow

you know that nothing this life
can be meaningless no

but the trivial day to day
driving walking sleeping say

we go on and on a couple years
and this is our life

so why do we all join the strife
that jealousy and hate ignite

the people that we strive to be
must fight through fake reality

but it’s not loud enough to breathe
and i’m ignoring the things i don’t wanna see

the definition of this world is beyond me
and it’s not loud enough to breathe

but it’s not loud enough to breathe
if i could only ignore what i don’t wanna see

the definition of this world is beyond me
and it’s not loud enough to breathe
Track Name: alone (please)
everybody please stop hitting on me
i'm not looking for anything
you're all too young
too old
too sexist for me
the only one i care about may never need me
may never need me

so leave me alone i know we both play cool guitars
we all drive terrible cars 
and we both talk through our problems constantly 
inside our heads ‘cause no one's listening
that we want to talk to

i don't wanna be rude
but it's true
i'm disassociating from everyone
in the room
i don't mean to
it just happens to me
frequently you see
it's not like i don't like you
it's not that i don't love you all
it's not that i don't care at all

i just want you to know
that you should go

and leave me alone i know we both play cool guitars
we all drive terrible cars 
and we both talk through our problems constantly 
inside our heads ‘cause no one's listening
that we want to talk to

i just want to be alone
i just want to be alone
please leave me alone
Track Name: sunshine queen
they’re no better
but they look so great together
i’m no better
but whoever makes you happy
i wish you the best

what misfortune that she loves the man
who's in love with the brightest of the land
and there’s little hope for her to have a chance
oh the irony of not
wanting anything or anyone
and falling all the same for such a man

so go on and court the sunshine queen
i know it’s not the end of the world for me
if you’re happy
just be happy
then i’m happy too
i’m not but i will be happy
for you

it’s too real can she stop thinking about
his smile and his style and the way that his mouth
laughs and talks about things that are everything
that she loves
that he loves

there’s no way she can envy
this sunshine queen
there’s no reason for her heart
to turn bright green with envy
yes it simply can’t be justified
inside her head she knows their love is fine
if it’s true
and there’s nothing she can do

so go on and court the sunshine queen
i know it’s not the end of the world for me
if you’re happy
just be happy
then i’m happy too
i’m not but i will be happy
for you

so go on and court the sunshine queen
i know it’s not the end of the world for me
if you’re happy
please be happy
then i’m happy too
i’m not but i will try
i will try
i will try
to be happy
for you